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Monday, March 16, 2009

the stand vs giving in

In one of my classes we've been looking in depth about family issues.  One that hits me hard is DIVORCE.  So much mixed feelings start to arise; furious at the statistics, but heart breaking from the truth it intails.  See although I come from divorced parents, I am stereotyped to be "one of those."  You know the ones that are insecure, and fearful.  The ones that will get divorced as well.  Get bad grades, even drop out of school.  Oh and I like this one. .. end up in jail, or even pregnant.  Sure, I used to believe these lies that society has told me countless times, and even used them as excuses.  The reason why I got bad grades was because my parents weren't together.  That I'm bound to screw up relationships because of the fear I have.  The insecrity of holding on to a TOXIC RELATIONSHIP because no one better will come along. 
Luckily I worship a GOD who will help me overcome! That through (grace) him and the promises he holds I am able to be SET FREE!

Your LOVE sets me FREE!
=)


Monday, March 09, 2009

who.what.why

Recently, on numerous accounts the situation of man vs. GOD would come up.  Not in the sense of can man prove that GOD does exist, or who could win the battle man or GOD.  This is totally taken upon another level, the level about Serving and Surrendering.  Do we seriously serve GOD or do we live to be accepted? Scripture states: Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ. -Galatians 1:10 Scripture simply states it: pleasing men = non servant of Christ. We live in a time where it teaches us that you need to live this way or have this or act like this to be looked at as "cool" to become "popular" Totally reminds me of High School.  Everyone longs to be the popular kid, who everyone knows and gets invited to everything.  A certain persona/image is created to fit into that category, to become that person.  The uniqueness of who we are/who we were made to be starts to diminish.  It's in the simple things, staying at a job because your boss may get mad that you're quitting, or letting what people say dictate your decisions.  It's starts off to be little things that we overlook, which then manifest to other things which may possibly lead to taking over the life. 

Break free! Take a stand! You have a mind, USE IT! YOU do YOU =)

Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you.  On him God the Father has placed his seal of approval. John 6:27


Wednesday, February 25, 2009

you do you

battles are won and lost at the threshold of the mind.

Mind Controls: time, emotion, decisions, and memory. ..

it ultimately comes down to how we process, control, and respond to situations presented

let the world dictate who you want to be; just to be accepted? taking matters into your own hands because want results now; lacking in patience and self control?

think. act. feel


Thursday, February 05, 2009

journaling + music = definite zen time
Xanga should definitely be brought-en back! I remember being in high school and updating this in class, which seemed to be "the cool thing to do." It was a safe place to openly express how and what you are feeling while getting others feedback, which is definitely nice. With this, I declare that xanga will definitely be making a comeback! It's starting with Tasha and I since Tasha has been updating regularly and I intend to as well. =)


Sunday, September 28, 2008

baggage

A dear friend and I were talking about how there is a major difference between a boy, guy, and man. After analyzing them, the thought was if we do this and analyze the difference, guys must do that too! Then we (my friend and I) started to look into our own lives. This is what I got out of our conversation; my insight, my source of encouragement.

Bitches and Hoes are inevitable. Straight up. Whether they are straight up bitches, fake bitches, or possibly a combination of both. (I won't even go into the different Hoes.) We have come across of these girls throughout our lives. We maybe even are one/were one. I’ll definitely be the first to admit that I am one of those straight up bitches. I aint afraid to admit it, because at the same time I know that I am a work in progress. Being able to identify myself in this category also helps me to identify in what Iwant to become. . . a great and mighty women of god.

I’ve been on the other ide of the spectrum. Going upon life in my own strength, seeking comfort and acceptance in other things. Of course that didn’t cut it. Yeah it’s fun experiencing different things that society makes out to be “cool,” but that thrill only lasts for so long. It begins to get boring really fast which is definitely not fun.

However, a fun and exciting thing is that God gave us (females) emotions! We have an extra dose more than the male species. Woo hoo fun stuff right! So obviously we can handle these emotions, but the question is how we act upon them that is truly fun! We are blessed with emotions while being super emotionally driven, exactly how God wanted us to be.

God intended us to know that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. That we are his beautiful little princesses! No one will EVER love us more than he does. Hes along side us every step we take. Ultimately going before us to make our paths mighty & just. He feels every emotion we do and then some. How refreshing and awesome is that? just the thought of it makes my stomach turn. Seriously no greater love! Now taping into it and experiencing it is a whole other story. Yeah, we can all fake the funk and go through the motions. To look great on the outside when reality is: the inside is what matters most. Anyone can make like they have it all together; everything is fine and dandy (remember fake GIRL). Yeah, definitely don’t want to become her.

Doesn’t it take an even bigger person, a WOMEN to show true colors? To admit times are tough and I need help? The struggles, fears, and battles that are going on. I mean telling every person you come across of your whole life story is not n ecessary but those few trusted sisters/females in life. The ones that God blessed us all with. Don’t know who they are? Break down pride and open eyes, still can’t find em; pray. Yeah of course things in the past are who we’ve become today but starting a new and breaking down barriers is what it’s all about.

For decades the female species have been portrayed by various interpretations. Some good, and some bad. Yes, we are driven by emotions, but again acting upon emotions is a whole other thing. Anger, bitterness, fears, lust, trust can all be conquered. I am learning that it all starts with a good look within, ME. My pride needs to be reduced and trust needs to be increased. Everyday I choose not to harbor bitterness, I choose not to give into temptation, I choose not to sit back because of the fear of failure. That’s where faith definitely comes in! Once we have that surrendering hearts, he can then work fully within. Trusting and knowing he has our best interest in mind.

This especially in the area of relationships. As females we long to be loved and to find “the one.” But with that of course will be the “tests.” The BOYS come to use and abuse. While the GUYS come to say the right things and appear to be the right one for us. Personally, I don’t want/need one of those. We all shouldn’t, well unless of course you’re one of those bitches/hoes (girls). Don’t settle for anything less than the best! Know current season! The right thing at the wrong time is still wrong. Isn’t it better to wait on Gods timing, the right time and get fully blessed? Even more than what we can imagine? Not to chance it because YOU wanted to chance it? To become caught up in the NOW when there’s so much greater things we can do while were still single. Remember God knows the desires of our heart. He longs for the same things we do. Easier said than done right. It’s definitely not easy but as we captivate our hearts with God, time flies by. That’s ultimately how it should be. God ultimately having our full attention That’s the least we can do. For reals. He died, DIED and not a pretty death at that. I’m pretty sure we can sacrifice a little of our years and attention span for the greater good.

Till then as women of God we must do the big S word; SUBMIT. Submit to the character building that the big guns is doing within us. Submitting our own desires, the NOW mentality. It involves lowering pride and truly looking into what needs work and being patient. Seriously thogh if we expect “the one” to be all that we desire and more, we owe it to him to be all that we can be, bettering ourselves now. To become that Proverbs 31 women. Which surprisingly involves Submitting to the guy.

I know right, very fun stuff! Woo Hoo! No really, todays thoughts are tomorrows actions so think positively! By waiting and working on myself now, will make the future more promising and worth it. The best is yet to come =) Surrounding in great sisters is helpful. Live, Love, Laugh Think, Act, Feel. Pray continuously. Discern personal wants from what big guns wants for us. Believe. Dream Big. Never settle/conform. We are surrendering to God and his mighty plans while being hopeful for what we know and continue to desire=)



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